2 years

Wow, I can't believe it has been 2 years today. I have to admit that this year I have been more of a scrooge, a Grinch than a jolly soul. When I started to see signs of Christmas my heart ached because the memories of 2007 came flooding back to me. I felt angry and bitter again and didn't even want to put up the tree or decorate my house. When I would be out shopping I hated seeing mothers and daughters together. I hated seeing sisters giggling with each other as they shopped together. I have felt very alone.
But as the season progressed I was ashamed and knew Mom would not want me to be like that. I needed to be happy and as a mother and domestic engineer, it is up to me to make sure our Christmas is magical, just like my Mom taught me.

I wondered, why did mom had to die at Christmas? Out of all the days of the year...why Christmas? Then I realized what I learned that year and all I was taught because she died at Christmas. We made Christmas more simple, we created more memories together by spending more time together. We focused more on the savior and we served more.

I am a basket case at times and I remember at Thanksgiving time when we were all together talking. I wanted to make sure Mom could do all the things she always wanted to do in her life. I wanted to take her on a trip etc. etc. She looked at me and said "Be still, and just enjoy life. Be Calm."

I remember a few months earlier having a conversation with her and she told me about a lesson she had listened to at church. It was about our bodies and she told me how grateful she was for her body and the amazing journey she has had with her body. She told me how she has born 9 babies, she has walked in many amazing places, she had seen some spectacular sights and heard her grandchildren giggle. She explained to me how she had been so angry with her body and how it could be diseased and dying, but had gained a great appreciation for it that day. She had no regrets.

She taught me so much. I want to be better and try harder. I may not live near family and I may be alone a lot, but I can choose to be happy and serve others as my mom would want me to.

I so appreciated Grandma Robertson's Christmas letter this year. As I search for a more simpler life, it made me think and reflect.
"Learn to like the sunrise and sunset, the beating of rain on the roof and windows, and the gentle fall of snow on a winter's day. Learn to keep your wants simple and like what doesn't cost much. Learn to like fields, trees, brooks, hiking,rowing and climbing hills" That is exactly what Mom would say, and what she meant when she said, "Be still, enjoy life and be calm."

So, I think that my Mom died at Christmas because she wanted to give me a gift. A gift that she couldn't give me Christmas day, and I am thankful every day for that gift.

Mom, I miss you everyday. I long for your voice to be on the phone, I long for another road trip together. I miss your smile, brown eyes and lipstick. I miss your laughter and your many talents, and especially shopping. I miss your advice and ideas. I hope I am doing it right, at times I'm just not sure. I know you are near and helping us along. I feel that and am so thankful that you are not far away. Please tell Lori that I miss her so, and I am so thankful that you have each other. I wish for her example here, but know that she is needed elsewhere.
I think about you both every day. Thank you for all you taught me. I am trying.
Merry Christmas. I love you.

The Perfect Get-Away

In case you can't tell, I am a terrible speller. I often forget to push the spell check button, but when I do remember it doesn't work. My daughter, Hailey takes after her mother, poor girl.

So, Joel has been working SO MUCH lately. His client is very demanding and they are trying to close up a project. He looked at the calendar the other day and said, "I have only spent 4 night at home in the last 30 days." I has shocked. I knew he had been gone a lot but didn't realize that much!

Each year over the first weekend in December I fly to Utah to attend the company Christmas party. At first I was very uncomfortable, but have since gotten to know a lot of the people in the office and their spouses and really enjoy visiting with them and catching up.

This year was no exception. I did fly over a day earlier so I could stay with Joel while he had a conference at the Stein Erickson lodge.

This is a swanky place and is a 5 star resort, the only one in the Northwest I believe. The guys meet you out front and get your luggage and park your car...valet parking I believe it's called:) They take you to your room and show you around. And they like TIPS.
I hate eating at fancy places and trying to pronounce the menu. The food is weird and I always think I must look like a hill billy. We were disappointed when our room didn't have a fireplace, last year he had a fireplace. And I was disappointed when I went to go running and the fitness center was closed due to remodeling. I had a lot of time to burn while Joel was in meetings and was looking forward to burning some calories. But ended up laying around and watching TV, which was nice too.
The next day we left at noon to shop at the Park City outlets. I love these outlets and we were having such a wonderful time we forgot that we both only had 2 small carry-on suit cases and we flew here! So we had to tame it down a bit, but got most of our Christmas shopping done.
They rented a beautiful home in Draper on the hill. We arrived there and helped Vicki the secretary set up and the caterer bring in the food. The party was lovely and we enjoyed it a lot. We snuck away at 10pm to go catch a movie, The Blind Side, which we liked a lot. We stayed at the home in Draper and slept in the next morning until 9:30am. It was so nice!
We drove to a wonderful restaurant called Paradise Bakery in Sandy and ate a nice breakfast and TALKED for like an hour about nothing at all. I felt like I found my best friend again!! We went to Temple square and walked around when it started to snow. It was so beautiful. We flew home a little while later to find that Coelton had done a great job in taking care of everything while we were away.
Friday night he did call and tell us that it was 58 degrees in the house and the kids could see their breath in the air! The furnace had broke. Boise has been setting record low temperatures. -10 degrees and such. We were worried and called our neighbor who fixes furnaces and he went over and had it fixed in no time. He was a tender mercy.
I am so thankful for a faithful husband who works hard to provide for us and always finds time in his busy life to love us too.

So much to be thankful for!

I didn't get many pictures in the month of November. I either forgot the camera or the battery was dead. Having this blog definetly makes me take pictures, or at least wish I did.

Harvest Dance

I love to see Coelton enjoying his high school years by going to fun dances with cute girls! He was asked to Harvest 3 times, however, the first asker gets the date. Marnie Strasser in our ward asked him. She was very creative in how she did it. She set up a little scavenger hunt and at the end was a cake that had a hidden message. They had a cowboy theme for their group and they went horse riding during the day and ate dutch oven.

My Birthday

This year I was fed breakfast is bed at 7a.m. I had to bag the popcorn at the school, but did get to go out to lunch with my friends. We all went to Sizzler for dinner as a family. Then Caden and Joel made me a yummy birthday cake with reese's peanut butter cups on top! 39 and strong!

Nike Cross Nationals

Coelton competed in his last xc race at eagle island. The coach put their team in the championship division. They raced against many schools from all over the northwest. They did well taking 19th place. When I asked Coelton why he put them in the champs and not the varsity division he said, "Cause we could either race against the best and see what happens or take first place." It was a bitter sweet day. Last high school race, but also a great ending to a great season.

Student of the month
Both Chloe and Hailey were the student of the month at Mary McPherson Elementary. Their teachers said they were hard workers and always do their best. They are kind to everyone and help when others need it. Good job girls!

Wisdom Teeth


Coelton's wisdom teeth have been coming in and giving him trouble, but he didn't want to take them out during XC, so we waited until it was all over. He was very nervous as we watched wisdom teeth extractions on youtube. Uncle Jason took them out on a early Friday morning. I got to watch ad took some pictures. Coelton was given a few shots and was awake during the whole thing. He swelled up on his right side, he looked like he had a golf ball in his cheek, but handled the pain with ibuprofen and tylenol.

New Moon
The highly anticipated movie New Moon was released this month. Joel went to England to do business and was away for a week. He flew in on a Saturday afternoon and we went to the show with Coelton and Caden. Joel hasn't read the books, but I would tell him about them as I read them. Coelton has read them all and Caden has read the first 2. We enjoyed this movie better than Twilight. Although my guys wanted to see more vampire/wolf fights. Stephanie Meyer is Melissa Hammer's cousin. It is so interesting to me to see her fame and fortune over a story that she created with her sister.

Operation Christmas Child

The Hammer family does a Christmas service project every other year. During a service year we don't buy gifts for eachother, we put that money towards a service. We all take turns being in charge of the service project. This year Jordan and Melissa were in charge and they chose Operation Christmas Child. I took the kids shopping for FHE and we bought toys, hygeine items, learning items and candy. We wrapped shoe boxes in christmas wrapping paper and filled our boxes. We put tags on the boxes that said if it was for a girl or a boy and what age. The boxes had to be dropped of at a designated place by Nov. 23. The following Monday for FHE we drove to the Baptist church and dropped off our boxes. It was neat to see so many others there unloading shoe boxes. These boxes will be shipped over seas to countries where children are poverty stricken. It will bring a smile and much happiness to children with nothing. As we brought our boxes into the church there was many pictures and posters of children across seas with their boxes and simple treasures. It touched our hearts, and helped kick off our holidays in a wonderful way.

Eagle Scout



Caden had his court of honor this month. It was a wonderful night with LOTS of friends and family. Grandpa Judy and Grandma and Grandpa Hammer came over. I put together a slide show that was a lot of fun to see. Caden has worked hard on achieving this goal, scouting has been a good influence on his life. His scout leaders spoke and presented his eagle award. We served pumpkin pie and had a good time visiting with everyone. The Barson's and the Mortenson's our home teachers who are both in their 80's came, also most everyone who volunteered on the project was there too.



Thanksgiving


This year was a Hammer year for Thanksgiving. We all made the long journey to St. George to have thanksgiving with the Hewards. We left on Wednesday afternoon and drove to American Fork and stayed with DaNae and Randy. We got up early the next morning and made our way to St. George so the guys could play in the Turkey Bowl.
We had a wonderful meal together at a church house. Everyone was there except Julie, Jordan, Josh and Chantelle's families. We did get to see Chantelle and her cute little family later on Friday. It is wierd to see our nieces and nephews married with children of their own. We had never seen Chris, Chantelle or Andrew's little ones. It was also good to see Chad, Casey and Taylor.
We enjoyed shopping on black friday, going to the Tuacans to see the Nativity play, we also made a couple crafts and had lots of time to visit...and eat.


We split up the 9 hour drive by stopping in American Fork and staying at the Slade residence. The kids loved playing with Macey and the Cat. Collin had grown so much since the last time we had seen him. He was a little unsure of all the visitors and when I held him his lower lip stuck way out like he was about to cry. He is adorable. Joel and Coelton went with Randy to play basketball and enjoyed that. The highlight of the weekend was when the boys and Joel got to go to the BYU vs. Utah game, and when BYU won 26-23 in over time...the boys rushed the field. Very Cool.